alright kids, its 4:20am; i am at work and doing absolutely nothing. so in hopes to create some sort of connection between me and my e-friends, reply to this survey, and i shall do the same for you. i promise.

1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Love me or hate me?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I will get married and to who and why?
9. What makes me giddy?
10. What makes me weep?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. Have you ever wanted to get with me physically?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Who do i want to kill?
17. Describe me in one word:
18. Describe my personality in one word:
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

its horrible that surveys and little blurb thingys are all that i do now.... but what can i say?


A is for age: 21
B is for booze: vodka
C is for career: night auditor
D is for dad's name: brian
E is for essential items to bring to a party: good, intellegent conversationalists. no, really.
F is for favorite song at the moment: "distance" by cake
G is for girlfriend: not at the moment.
H is for hometown: camillus
I is for instruments you play: my mp3 player.
J is for jam or jelly you like: orange marmalade.
K is for kids: love them. want them some day.
L is for living arrangements: with my family.
M is for mom's name: danette
N is for name of your best friend: kym, lee, cutler, mike, nardo and patch.
O is for overnight hospital stays: nope
P is for phobias: dark and lots of bugs all at once.
Q is for quote you like: you know that quote from willy wonka? the one about musicmakers and dreams and stuff? i think its from that movie. if you can find it- you get a cookie.
R is for relationship that lasted longest: over a year and a half
S is for sexual position: honestly, i'm not too picky. haha. i like being on top though.
U is for unique trait: i am uber-lovable. i have almost no enemies.
V is for vegetable you love: hm... cabbage. yeah, its true.
W is for worst trait: i am impatient. so so so impatient.
X is for x-rays you've had: my foot, and arm.
Y is for yummy food you make: chicken stir fry or any kind of casserole.
Z is for zodiac sign: aries.


work is going great. i could not ask for a better job. well.. a promotion maybe. *wink* i'm making friends everywhere i go. yesterday i went to oneida to hang out with Darrin the bartender at work. His place is sooooooo kickass and he is great to hang with. I might be hanging out this afternoon with some friends from work. It seems that i am falling into the same habit where all i really seem to have is friends at work, not that i ignore my other friends, most of them jut happen to be where i work right now. :)

linda's kids mark and laruin came into town this week, well laurin has been here a while, but i finally got to meet mark, and i can't say how freaking happy i am how things went. brian, mark and i all mesh just wonderfully. its like he's really been a brother the whole time. the more and more everything goes smoothly between relations between my dad, and linda and all of us kids and other family members just makes me so much more happy because i know, i just know that my dad and linda are going to get married. they are so into each other; even when my dad goes spastic. haha. she is there and she pulls him out of it. my dad is a lot less uptight now. my grandfather is even accepting of all this. and for those of you that know of my grandather, he can seriously be bi-polar and make everyone hate the world just by being in the same house as him. but no more of that either! i think linda is our guardian angel. this is seriously a true love story. a brady bunch story. yay!

okay, i think that's enough share-time for now.

p.s. sorry i stretched out journals with my mini-meme and even more mini-entry.

Aries:
Say 'yes' to any and every invitation that comes your way. So you're double- or triple-booked -- your brief appearances supercharge the room, and you're treated like a rock star wherever you go.


haha. yessuh.

This cracked me up. Mostly because... Its totally true-- and I have been asked to move to Belize before. Really.

Here are 10 ways to help you identify Mr. or Ms. Wrong--that unspecial someone who may be toxic to you. Ask yourself these questions:

1. Do you often feel as though you are doing most of the work to keep the relationship going and your partner happy?

2. Do you feel that nobody is thinking about you and what makes you happy?

3. Is your relationship completely organized around your partner's interests, schedules, and activities (or lack thereof)?

4. Do you feel controlled by your partner's up and down moods?

5. Do other people tell you that your partner is "difficult," "selfish," and "self-absorbed?"

6. Do you find yourself covering up for your partner's inappropriate behavior?

7. Is your partner making unilateral decisions that affect your life and well being, such as telling you, "We need to move to Belize"?

8. Is your sense of safety and security regularly threatened by your partner's impulsive, selfish behavior?

9. Do you feel like a slave to your partner's ego?

10. Is everything always about your partner (with your needs and priorities obliterated)?

read the rest here

? ? ? I N F O R M A T I O N ? ? ?
Name: Heather
Single or taken: single.
Sex: Female
Birthday: march 28
Sign: aries
Siblings: Brian, Paul
Hair color: dark.
Eye color: apparently they change colors. from blue-gray, to blue, to green to hazel.
Height: 5'5

? ? ? R E L A T I O N S H I P S ? ? ?
Who are your best friends?: Lee, Marsha, Lyss, Cutler, Mikey, Nardo
You have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: no

? ? ? F A S H I O N | S T U F F ? ? ?
Where is your favorite place to shop: hot topic, lane bryant, marshall's
Any tattoos or piercings: five on each ear, tongue, nose, nipples. tattos: one on each shoulder- one just under my neck, one in the middle of my back, one on my wrist and one above my right breast.

? ? ? S P E C I F I C S ? ? ?
Do you do drugs?: yes.
What kind of shampoo do you use?: treseme and suave.
What are you most scared of?: the dark.
What are you listening to right now? launchcast radio, matchbox twenty - unwell
Who is the last person that called you?: Ron
Where do you want to get married?: in a garden.
How many buddies are online right now?: i am not on any messenger system.
What would you change about yourself?: nada. i'm pretty satisfied with me.

? ? ? F A V O R I T E S ? ? ?
Color: lately... its pink. but i am a huge green and blue fan
Food: hm... i like salads. potato, leafy, macaroni, any kind of "salad"
Boys names: Noah, Ben
Girls names: Roxanne, Layla
Subjects in school: i was always pretty good at languagues
Animals: puppies and kitties!

? ? ? H A V E | Y O U | E V E R ? ? ?
Given anyone a bath?: yep.
Smoked?: yeah.
Bungee jumped?: no
Made yourself throw up?: no
Skinny dipped?: yes.
Ever been in love?: um... real love, no.
Made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: no. i think that's stupid.
Pictured your crush naked?: yeah. lol.
Actually seen your crush naked?: no.
Cried when someone died?: yes.
Lied: once or twice-- i got fucking called on it and never did it again
Fallen for your best friend?: haha. um.. in a way. but her and i arent friends anymore.
Been rejected?: of course.
Rejected someone?: yes. lol.
Used someone?: no
Done something you regret?: yup.

? ? ? C U R R E N T ? ? ?
Clothes: black cuffed pants, white button up shirt, black suit jacket.
Make-up: i dont wear make-up. - usually.
Annoyance: one. or two.
Smell: victoria- very sexy for her.
Desktop picture: blue
Book you're reading: all things alice



? ? ? L A S T | P E R S O N ? ? ?
You touched: darrin. i hugged him before he left work. :)
You hugged: darrin! haha
You imed: Sydney
yelled at: my little brother
You kissed: Sonny

? ? ? A R E | Y O U ? ? ?
Understanding: yes
Open-minded: yes
Arrogant: no
Insecure: i'm getting better
Random: i live on random lane.
Hungry: nope. just made something from the aubon.
Smart: somewhat. lol
Moody: im a baum, and i am a female.
Hard working: very.
Organized: at some things.
Healthy: so-so
Shy: not as much as I used to be
Difficult: only when i want to be
Attractive: yes. i am. or so i have been told by... quite a few people in my life
Bored easily: yes
Responsible: yes
Obsessed: over certain things
Angry: not usually
Sad: not so much
Happy: very
Hyper: sometimes.
Trusting: too trusting.


? ? ? W H O | D O | Y O U | W A N N A ? ? ?
Kill?: no one.
Slap: ....i can think of a few people.
Get really wasted with?: LeeLee, Sonny, Nardo.
Get high with: they shall remain nameless
Talk to offline: Ron.
Talk to online: Syd
Sex it up with:...heh.

? ? ? R A N D O M ? ? ?
In the morning I am: perky
All you need is: love.
I dream about: becoming sucessful
Sexual preference: guys
What do you notice first in the sex you're into: eyes, smile

? ? ? W H I C H | I S | B E T T E R ? ? ?
Coke or Pepsi: diet pepsi with lemon
flowers or candy: flowers
Tall or short: tall!

? ? ? W H O ? ? ?
Makes you laugh the most: Marsha, Mike, Cutler.
Makes you smile: most of my friends.
Gives you a funny feeling when you see him/her: a few people. haha

? ? ? D O | Y O U | E V E R ? ? ?
Sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: no.
Save conversations: sometimes.
Wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: sometimes i am curious
Wish you were younger: no.
Cried because someone said something to you?: yea.

? ? ? N U M B E R ? ? ?
Of times I have had my heart broken: two
Of hearts I have broken: i dont think any.
Of guys I've kissed: three
Of girls I've kissed: two
Of CD's I own: at least one thousand
Of scars on my body: a few little ones. one on my leg from a broken glass bottle
Of things that I regret: three

CD in player: Citizen Cope
DVD in player: Quantam Leap Season 3!

my audit is done. yay! haha.

another 3 hours here at work... hm..

star wars. i almost feel as though i HAVE to touch on this subject taking into account my prior place of employment as well as the friends i have. i am not the biggest stars wars fan by any means, but i am going to see it this weekend, and am actually looking forward to it. it would be anti-pop culture of me to not see it as well as blasphamus in the eyes of 80% of my friends.

father's day is coming up, and it is perhaps one of the most important days of the year in my house. we've got my grandfather and my dad. so my brothers and i are already discussing ideas for father's day weekend. i just hope i dont have to work that night or the night before. working the audit shift at the hotel... is great, dont get me wrong, but my family time has dwindled down a bit because of it. i guess in a way its good because it makes the time i spend with my family more valuable. haha. we all live in the same house, yet i see my co-workers more than my own family. nuts. haha. nuts.

my date went.. semi-okay. it was more ackward than anything else. probably because my brothers wouldn't leave me alone! ha. it worked out though. the boy and i might be hanging out this weekend sometime. i don't really know what him and i are yet. so i am doing my absolute best not to get my hopes up or my expectations too high. i can't be too girly. i have to maintain some sort of decency. i have plenty of time to freak out later. i'll just take it one day at a time for now. right? i mean, that's okay to do? i dont know. my history with guys isnt exactly stellar nor experienced. maybe i should try not to think about it and ramble on about it so. i mean, this is just a guy. oye.

okay, well. small ramble, but its good enough for me. i'm off. love you all.

-.hlb.-

* the basement is remodled.
* i'm kicking ass at work.
* my family and i are better than we have been in a long time, in part to my dad's girlfriend. i so hope they get married.
* i'm losing weight. (something i never thought possible.)
* i have a real date tonight, and i'm just a little nervous.

i am getting the internet back today. which means that when i am not working, i can be online. at least a little bit.

i went to rochester this weekend with my dad, brian, paul and linda. (linda is my dad's girlfriend.) we went to the lilac festival and i got my picture taken with lilacs! i am going to grow one someday. they smell so pretty. SO pretty.

the basement went from brown painted cement and 70's dark wood paneling to a pretty blue! we also carpeted the basement and made a nice living space for outselves. i'm turing into a regular home and gardens lady. i'm working on a color scheme for my room next.

brian passed his boards, as i have mentioned before i think, and he is waiting on a few hospitals and nursing homes to call back. he turned into a REAL man. not your typical man, but a real... gentleman. he is seriously my best friend next to my pop. who knew that leaving home for 9 months could just bring my family and i closer together? brian and i drive around a lot and we talk about getting a house together. not immediately, but in the next year or so. he might move somewhere after he establishes some good employment history, and i might follow him after i take care of some much needed bill paying. haha.

priorities have changed a lot in the last year. i don't know how to specify or even explain, or if i even want to get into that whole concept right now, but things couldn't be better. i'm happy, i wake up everyday not knowing what is next, but having some sort of focus. and honestly, i like that. i like being ambitious and goal-oriented. so does my job. in case you dont know, i am working at a doubletree hotel. i started as a front desk clerk a month and a half ago, and two weeks ago was moved over to night auditor. its not a step UP its a step TOWARDS .. UP. (at least i think so.) i thought i would hate the hours of 11pm to 7am, but i love it. i get my job done by 3:30 most nights and i get 4 hours to work on my projects. my writings, my crosswords (because i am a nerd now) and such.

so. yeah, i also have a date tonight. (not my first) i'm a little nervous and unsure of what's up. i'm not oblivious to what he wants.... its not like we haven't.. gone there before, but nervous because i guess i want to know exactly what is up, and what will happen. i dont like being unsure of boys. and that is probably because i always am anyways. does that make any sense? it made sense as i was thinking about it and typing.. ah well.

its now 5:30 and i'm going to get back to work.

toodles for now.